How did i end up like this?

Before the start of the main story/original story

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How did it come to this?

Piles of garbage stretch out endlessly around me. I can't see far, but it's clear that piles of garbage are spreading out. Oh, calm down. First, count the prime numbers. 2, 3, 5, 7, 11... I feel like I'm having deja vu... but, well, that doesn't matter. First, calm down. Close your eyes and take a deep breath.

...Can you calm down?!

…

... How did i end up like this?

In my final moments as Ryusho Kazama—with regrets clawing at my fading consciousness—I willed my third Nen ability, [Reincarnation/New Game+], to activate. Then… darkness. No sight, no sound, yet awareness flickered awake. I awoke.

I should be dead. Which means… it worked. [Reincarnation/New Game+] had truly triggered!!

Yes! A second chance! I'd won the ultimate gamble! But triumph curdled to horror almost instantly…

The ability worked flawlessly. My consciousness had transferred. However, there had been a miscalculation.

My mother, the mother who had bestowed upon me this new body, had died. And before she gave birth to me. The moment my consciousness awoke, the enormous amount of aura that was released must have opened up all the pores in my mother's body.

If the aura surging from her body isn't contained, it'll drain completely. Aura is life energy itself, If it runs out, the person can pass out from total fatigue, and in the worst case scenario, die of exhaustion. It would be difficult for a woman nearing the end of her pregnancy, and especially for my mother, who probably had no training in martial arts whatsoever, to master Zetsu, and so she ended up dying of exhaustion.

I was the reason a woman lost her life.

In my past life, I had never killed anyone. And yet, here I was—the cause of an innocent woman's death…

Regret overwhelmed me the moment I was reborn.

But that wasn't the only miscalculation.

The second miscalculation—my own aura had clearly grown exponentially. It was undeniably greater than at the peak of my past life. What is this?

Before I died, my aura at most reached about two-thirds of its prime. Now, it's nearly twice that? Well, that's fine— I guess you could call it a pleasant miscalculation.

The real problem, though, is the nature of my aura.

It's… sinister. Almost as if it carries every misfortune this world has to offer…!!

…No, maybe that's an exaggeration. At least, since I'm not consciously infusing it with malice, it doesn't feel entirely evil. But even in its neutral state, it's this ominous…!!

Why?

Could it have something to do with the fact that I died once? …That's probably it.

Maybe the reason my mother died wasn't just the sheer volume of my aura—but also its very nature.

For an ordinary person, just being exposed to this kind of aura… might have been far too much to handle.

The sheer malice emanating from my aura was so overwhelming that neither the doctors, the nurses, nor even the man who seemed to be my father dared to approach me…

Should I use Zetsu? I thought so, but when I tried, it wouldn't work properly… Damn it! Is it because my aura's nature changed so suddenly!?

For now, since my aura has weakened a little, the man I assume to be my father (?) finally approaches. By the way, my eyes still haven't opened, so I'm perceiving everything through aura. The versatility of Nen is insane. Not quite on the level of a certain chakra, but still.

"What a cursed child! This thing—this thing must have killed Misha!!"

…Misha. So that was my mother's name? …It hurts that I can't deny it.

"A monster like this—!"

As he says that, he pulls out what seems to be a gun and aims it at me…

A gun!? Hold on a damn second!!

Full-power Ten!!

The gunshot rings out immediately after.

…But I'm completely unharmed. It didn't hit me.

He must have flinched at my aura, causing his aim to falter. He's shaking uncontrollably, too.

This is going nowhere. I suppress my aura once more… I'm getting the hang of this.

"W-What do you think you're doing in a place like this!?"

"That's it, keep talking, doctor."

"Shut up! There's no doubt this guy killed Misha! You all felt it too, didn't you?! That eerie aura!!"

Misha… That must be the name of the person who gave birth to me. I can understand how this person feels… It's only natural. Anyone would be consumed by rage if someone they loved was killed…

"I-I understand that, but this is a hospital! As a doctor, I cannot condone harming others in a place meant to save lives!"

Wow, this doctor's really saying all the right things. Truly the model of a doctor… Though I'm pretty sure they don't mean it's okay to kill people outside the hospital, right?

"A person? There's no way this demon is a person!!"

W-Well, that's going a bit too far, don't you think…? Sure, the guy's aura is terrifying, but still. Honestly, if I ever ran into someone with an aura like that, I'd definitely be running the other way.

"Fine. I get it. As long as I don't kill him, right?… Hey, it's me. Send them to Memphis General Hospital immediately.… Yeah, them! All of them, got it?! And get the airship ready. Understood?"

Oh, so this is Memphis General Hospital. It's that hospital about 500 meters from the dojo—the one the disciples used to go to all the time. More importantly, what the hell did that old man just call for?… Don't tell me…?

…

About ten minutes later, a group of men in black suits filed into the room alongside the old man. By the way, the doctor and nurses were forcibly made to leave at this point.

…Just as I thought, these guys are Nen users… Did the old man call for Nen users?! Is he in a position of power where he can command Nen users?… They're even carrying guns. Could he be part of the mafia or something?

Well, that doesn't matter. Actually, maybe it does matter, but I'll set that aside for now.

Nen users are bad news!! No matter how much aura I have, my body is still that of a newborn. There's no way I can win! I can't let myself be killed right after being born! For now, I'll just go all out with Ken!

…Huh? Why do they look so terrified?

Oh, I see. Nen users who can sense aura are more sensitive to my aura, especially since it's mixed with hostility right now.

This is perfect!

"B-Boss… wh-what the hell is that…?!"

"Is that really a baby…?!"

"I-I thought I was gonna die…"

"............" (passed out)

…This is way too perfect!

"Pathetic! And you call yourselves my bodyguards?!"

"W-Well, you called us here because of this baby, right? What are we supposed to do…? You're not saying we should kill it, are you…?"

"Hmph! As much as I hate to admit it, I won't kill it. If I do it here, the International People's Data Organization will still have its records. And those records will show it's my child!"

So he's not going to acknowledge me after all… Well, I can't blame him. I mean, I've got this ominous aura, and I killed his wife. It'd be rare to find someone who could accept that…

"I called you here to protect me. Who knows when this thing might try to harm me… Hey, put it in the car. Have Dahl and Zaza flank it on either side. I don't think it'll try to escape, but make sure it doesn't get away."

"U-Us?!"

"R-Roger that…"

Sorry for making you guys draw the short straw…

"Oh, and that guy who passed out, Belom? Demote him. Make him start over from the bottom!"

Poor Belom…

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Now, I've been put in the Airship. Where are they taking me? It doesn't seem like they're going to kill me, but… Since I've got nothing else to do, I might as well check my Nen.

Hmm. Everything seems to be in order. The increase in aura quantity and the change in its quality were confusing at first, but once I got used to it, I could manipulate my aura with the same ease as in my past life. Dahl and Zaza, though, looked like they'd seen something impossible, utterly shocked and terrified.

Well, I can't blame them. A newborn baby performing Ten, Ren, Zetsu, Gyo, En, and Ko right in front of them—and at high speed, no less. If that's not a nightmare, I don't know what is.

I thought they'd be even more on guard, but I guess it's too late for that now.

I was taken out of the car. They handled me as carefully and quickly as if they were transporting nitroglycerin. This time, I was put on an airship. Seriously, where are they taking me?

How long has it been since I was put on the airship? Probably around five or six hours? I wish someone would tell me where we're going, but there's no one around… They just left a baby alone on the floor… Those guys have something seriously wrong with their humanity. …Well, if I put myself in their shoes, I can kind of understand.

It just occurred to me—if there were Nen users around, I could've used my aura to write words. That way, I could've communicated with them… Then again, if I had managed to communicate, they'd probably treat me even more like a monster.

Still, I really did something terrible to my mother… It's not something a simple apology can fix, but I wish I could've at least said sorry once… All of this happened because I created that Nen ability… It's not like I've given up on living, but that doesn't mean I don't regret it.

As I was lost in these thoughts, a mechanical whirrrr sound echoed, and the floor beneath me opened. A feeling of weightlessness engulfed my entire body. Huh?

Before I knew it, I was plummeting headfirst toward the ground!

Wait, what the hell?! They just dropped me from the airship!! What do you mean, "we're not going to kill you"?! If I hit the ground from this height, I'll die for sure!!

Aaaaaahhhhh!!! I'm falling, falling, fallingggggg!!!

Damn it! I'm not dying here! First, En! I need to confirm my position and time the moment of impact. Then, just before I hit the ground, I'll release my aura downward to slow my fall. After that, I'll use Ken at full power to absorb the impact!

…Phew, I think I made it. That was seriously close. I don't think I've ever panicked this much in my entire life.

Wait, where even is this? According to my En, it seems like there are massive piles of garbage all around…

…Piles of garbage?

I'll expand my En to its fullest! Whoa, it stretched nearly a kilometer! Yep, just as I thought! Everything around me is garbage, garbage, garbage, and more garbage! This has to be Meteor City. Thanks for nothing.

How did it come to this?...

Two days have passed since I was dumped—no, dropped—into Meteor City.

I'm still here, wrapped in scraps of cloth, completely alone… Why? I thought Meteor City was supposed to accept everything!

Why won't anyone pick me up?! Every single person who sees me bolts like a startled rabbit… No, I get it. It's obviously because of my aura… Even the residents here would draw the line at a baby this creepy…

Hell, one guy even threw a bomb at me! I deflected it with a burst of aura before it exploded, though!

…But ever since then, nobody comes near this area anymore.

Dammit! Should I have used Zetsu instead?! But that would mean surviving in this toxic hellscape with nothing but my bare flesh. A newborn baby can't handle that… Though I guess if you do survive these conditions, you'd grow into one hell of a Nen user… What's that group called again? The… something-or-other?

Ugh, I'm bored. Lying here doing nothing is torture. Training my Nen in this state is practically impossible. Well, not impossible, but aura exhaustion = life energy exhaustion. Why should I have to commit suicide at two days old?!

…Maybe I'll kill time using [Original Knowledge]. The energy cost should be negligible anyway.

…Wait? It's not activating. Why?! [Absolute Obedience/ Geass] should've been lifted! No one's using manipulation abilities on me! There's no reason it shouldn't work!… Did reincarnation lock away my past-life techniques? Or maybe my new brain lacks the original memories needed to access them?

…Yeah, that's probably it.

Sigh. Losing those abilities sucks, but whatever. The real problem is survival. Even with Nen, my body's still a baby's. No food, no water—I won't last much longer. My consciousness is already fading…

Someone… please… Huh? My En picked something up! Someone's coming! This is my last chance. I desperately suppress my aura. I hate using Zetsu, but I've got no choice. If I don't, I'll die of exhaustion. Better to risk infection than waste away!

Please. I'm just a harmless, adorable baby who happens to use Nen, has past-life memories, and radiates a slightly ominous aura!

Someone… anyone… Pick me up! I'll pay you back tenfold, I swear!!

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Lately, I've been hearing strange rumors here in Meteor City.

They say a baby fell from the sky. Not just any baby—one that landed unharmed after plummeting from the heavens. At first, I laughed it off. A baby surviving a fall like that? Ridiculous. But something about this rumor feels… off.

This is Meteor City. We take in everything the world throws away. Yet this baby's still lying where it landed, untouched.

The retrieval teams tried to collect it, apparently. But every time they got close, they'd flee in terror, babbling about some "creepy force" the kid radiates. One guy even panicked and lobbed a bomb at it—only for the bomb to veer off course meters away, leaving the baby completely unscathed.

Impossible. What kind of infant could do that? Unless… it's a Nen beast? Someone's conjured abomination?

It seems interesting. Time to see for myself.

…What the hell is this?

I reached the area where the baby's supposedly stranded and saw something unbelievable.

En. An impossibly vast En, stretching nearly a kilometer in radius. And they say a newborn is maintaining this? Unbelievable.

What should I do? Should I try touching this circle...?

…Let's go. If it really is just a baby, snatching it up could be… entertaining. We take what we want. That's who we are. Besides, if the rumors are true, no one's been hurt yet. Might be harmless.

I step into the En's range—

—and my body locks up.

A wave of aura crashes into me, denser and more sinister than anything I've ever felt. This isn't just En—it's like standing in the heart of Uvo's Ren!

I freeze, barely managing a single step. Then, abruptly, the En vanishes.

…Why? Did my presence trigger it? Is it taunting me?

Retreat? Or push forward?

No. I won't be mocked. I stride ahead, climbing the rubble until I spot the epicenter 500 meters away.

There it is. A baby, barely a week old. If it's been radiating that aura since birth, no wonder they dumped it here. And now, the brat's using Zetsu. Right after I entered its En. That's not instinct—that's sentience.

A sentient infant wielding Nen, oozing monstrous aura? That's not a child. That's an abomination.

…! It looked at me. Locked eyes. And smiled.

The moment I saw that grin, I was already sprinting back to base.

I'll warn the others. Stay the hell away from this place.

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I sense someone's gaze from about 500 meters away. Oh! Did that person from earlier come back?!

Look at me! I'm just a cute, harmless baby~! Not scary at all~! Who's there? My eyesight's finally working, so let me check.

My vision's still blurry, so I'll enhance it with Gyo. Oh, better mask my aura with In too, just in case.

Whoa!? …What a ridiculously handsome boy. Around 12 or 13? Damn! His good looks are pissing me off!!

Wait, no—focus! That pretty boy might be my future foster dad. Gotta flash him a winning smile.

Wait, hold up! What's with that speed?! The brat's bolting like a rocket! "Startled rabbit" doesn't even cover it—he's practically supersonic!

Come back! Don't leave! What's wrong with meeeeee?!

…Too late. He's already out of my En's range.

Another day passes…? I'm… done for… Hitting my limit. My stamina's gone…

For a baby, lasting this long is impressive, I guess…

No one's come near since that incident. I've tried expanding En, but not even a rat's around. Well, there were some, but after one En pulse, the area got… cleaned.

Am I just gonna rot here…?

No! I was reborn for a reason! I don't wanna die before living my second life!! If I'd known it'd end like this, I'd rather have stayed dead as Ryushou!!!

This isn't just my fault… I sacrificed Misha… my mom…!!

Someone… anyone… HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

[A Mother Boundless Love] Activated

"It's okay, my sweet child. Mama will protect you."

...…Huh? What's happening??? Why am I being gently cradled by this beautiful woman? Wait… Why do I feel so… safe…?

What the hell is this???

[Reincarnation (Lol)/Reincarnation? No Way!]

Type: Manipulation

An unconscious Nen ability born from Ryusho lingering regrets after dying with unresolved desires.

Activation: Upon death, the user's post-mortem Nen possesses a human within a 600-meter radius (equivalent to the user's maximum En range in life).

Target Selection: Automatically selects the most compatible host if multiple targets exist. No conscious choice is possible.

Failure Conditions:Fails if no one is within range.Fails if the host retains self-awareness for over 1 minute, causing the user's post-mortem Nen to vanish.

Conditions:

Cannot activate unless the user dies.

Death cannot be suicide or intentional martyrdom.

Possession success rate increases with the user's lifespan (due to this world's lethality).The user shares all injuries/pain inflicted on the host.

If the host dies, the user's post-mortem Nen vanishes.

Exorcism destroys the ability and kills the user's lingering Nen.

Vow:

The ability vanishes if the user engages in sexual intercourse with a woman during their lifetime.

[A Mother's Boundless Love/Grateful Mother]

Type: Conjuration

A Nen beast conjured by Misha's undying love for her child after her death. It radiates an ominous aura to others but comforts the child.

Abilities: Specializes in nurturing and protection, though its "overbearing mom" tendencies are a flaw.

Aura Capacity: [Misha's lifetime aura + post-mortem amplification].

Conditions:

Cannot be dismissed freely—persists until aura depletes.Cannot move beyond 10 meters from the child.Cannot use Nen techniques (Zetsu, Ren, Gyo, In, En, Shū, Ko, Ryū).Permanent disappearance if aura depletes.Aura cannot regenerate.

Abilities:

① [Love-Infused Miracle Milk/Love Milk]

Type: Transmutation + Conjuration

Converts aura into nutrient-rich breastmilk with effects:

Nutritional boost, stamina recovery, growth acceleration, infection resistance, beauty enhancement, aura restoration, etc.Customizable flavor.

Condition:

Drains aura with each use.

② [Convenient Baby Goods Store/Convenience Baby Goods]

Type: Conjuration

Manifests childcare items (diapers, strollers, etc.) known to Misha in life.

Conditions:

Items must align with childcare needs.Aura cost scales with item size.Drains aura with each use.

③ [Tough Love Discipline/Kyōiku Mama]

Type: Manipulation

Subconsciously conditions the child to avoid repeating punished behavior. Effective even on post-mortem Nen.

Conditions: Must reprimand with genuine love.

Overuse causes rebellion (tolerance varies by target).

Drains aura with each use.

Note: Grateful Mother is a post-mortem Nen ability born from Misha's regrets, not controlled by the protagonist.