I Became the Burden of a Conscienceless Party

95 – Abaddon (1)

Abaddon (1)

Jim, who had surrendered quietly, was first locked in the cabin to allow the internal organization of the warrior party to be organized.

That’s right, they recycled the cabin where Garnet was held.

“Is the place you were hit feeling okay?”

Jim asked the extra sitting next to him, whose body was swollen as if the dough had finished fermenting and was starting to rise.

When Jim decided to surrender, Garnet and Extra decided to run away, saying they should go their separate ways. And Esmeralda naturally followed them.

There was no special reason.

Esmeralda simply acted with the instinct of a beast, chasing after her opponent who ran away.

So, I caught them, but since I didn’t have anywhere to use them, I locked them in the cabin as extras.

That means it took a lot of mental effort to subdue Millia and Irina. Extra and Garnet were terrified by the sight of Esmeralda chasing them like a crazy woman and ran away.

It was none other than the extras who got kneaded by Esmeralda.

“If only it weren’t for that b*tch… … .”

Garnet tripped the extra’s foot and used it as bait.

That was Garnet’s only intention to fuck the extras, as she was able to subdue Esmeralda on her own.

Her own revenge.

At this point, wouldn’t it be possible to say that it was actually sold cheaply?

Jim thought so.

Of course, it was nonsense that Garnet would forgive the extras to this extent.

It is a chronic disease of the burden of the world to trust people too easily.

“Oh my. Well, what can I do now that things have come to this?”

The extras grumbled for a while, but eventually they became quiet, as if they had accepted the situation.

The silence of the cabin that came because of it.

Jim listened to the chirping of the insects that formed a background in the silence, and then soon turned his head.

“Come to think of it, we’ve never talked about ourselves to each other.”

“What would you and I talk about?”

“I’m still curious though. What is this Abaddon?”

“… … Even though you are a god, you don’t know?”

“That’s good. Let’s start by correcting that perception. Should I start by talking? Although I was called a god, I wasn’t a god of that high a rank. Those who are called gods in the first place are those above, and I and Ra and Pa are just half-wits.”

“In that case, isn’t the most powerful religious sect the Cheonshin sect?”

“That’s only natural. I’m more proactive in helping people than anyone else.”

The Cheonshin sect is the most deeply rooted faith in this land, but that’s not because Jim is special.

“Those at the top don’t really care about those at the bottom.”

“Is it something like the idea of ​​chosen people?”

“No. I don’t feel any sadness or pity, so it’s more like I don’t feel the need to move.”

Because I was free from the five desires and seven emotions.

Because I got rid of the three poisons.

Instead of becoming complete beings, they felt nothing.

That is the gaze of the transcendent being that Jim was so wary of.

To them, all of human joys and sorrows are just ordinary phenomena that pass by.

“Hey, this is an interesting story. Then, should I think of Hwaryeong as a god from above?”

The extra, who had been listening intently to Jim’s words about the gaze of the transcendent beings, turned his head.

There stood Garnet, who had abandoned herself as bait and run away.

It was because she was able to escape from Esmeralda that she was able to come to their rescue.

Now that I have managed to recover one stack of Carbuncle Soul and have distracted Esmeralda’s attention with my clone.

She was able to infiltrate the cabin almost bloodlessly.

“The same goes for Hwaryeong. He was a single flame. It would be easier to think of most of those we call gods as not beings but rather miracle-working phenomena.”

“… … Something like totemism?”

“Well, I don’t know. I wonder if they are giving too much meaning to what is nothing more than totemism, or if totemism is the closest thing to it. I was the youngest among them.”

Instead of reacting with joy or surprise to Garnet, who had come to rescue him, Jim continued his story.

It was as if he had wanted to tell Garnet the story from the beginning.

Garnet shrugged at Jim’s natural demeanor, but listened to him from outside the bars.

“He who has reached that place becomes a concept, free from the flesh. And the feats that naturally flow from that concept are… … .”

It leads to the price of faith.

They had no regard for those who served them.

The momentum just flowed naturally and connected with their faith.

It means that the power was not given for some reason.

“What I mean is, while I was working hard, they were just there.”

“… … How foolish. I don’t understand why you would do something so stupid.”

Garnet looked at Jim’s expression and knew that he really meant well.

While others were just sitting still, Jim was pouring out his own things.

The reason the status of the Cheonshin Church has risen so much is because he has devoted himself to the people.

That’s the point I didn’t understand.

She was like that once too. She lived that kind of life and was betrayed by her colleagues and died.

That’s why she now loathed that way of life.

“Aren’t people meant to live together? There are problems that can be easily solved with just one person’s help, but it’s too much to ignore… …”

There was so much he could do for them.

Yeah, that’s it.

Jim went around performing miracles for people.

Jim remembers when he finally reached the other side of the sky and met his brother.

Jim simply filled the empty bowl with tears, as if he had erased even himself.

He left his name behind.

Because I felt sorry for my brother who had thrown everything away.

Because in his quest to become a god, he lost the smiles of those he had helped and forgot the tears he had shed for them, and his nobility seemed to have faded.

“How can I not turn around when there are those who call me like this? How can I not reach out when they fall and shed tears?”

So the load came down.

Because he’s been involved with a lot more people than his brother.

Because he was an ordinary person, his steps were slow.

That is why I lived in the secular world for a long time and reached it by cutting it off.

And what he finally saw was a place that could never be called the utopia he had hoped for.

At least to him, living with people seemed more valuable than such near-omnipotent power.

“Seeing their smiles was more valuable to me than anything else, even though I had once abandoned them.”

It was because of fate that he was able to reach beyond the sky.

Halfway through his journey, there was an old man who offered him a glass of water.

There were people who were willing to open their doors to let him escape the rain when it was pouring down rain.

Jim tried not to forget that.

“So, Garnet.”

“I told you not to call me by my name without any formality. Call me by my honorific title.”

“I intend to help you too.”

“Well, how are you going to help? What can you do in that state?”

Garnet sighed in disbelief as she looked at Jim, who was smiling softly at her.

On the topic of being caught.

What on earth are you going to do for me?

“That’s right. For example, it might help ease your anxiety. Garnet, it wasn’t someone’s curse or the wrath of God that made you like this. You may have been secretly looking for the culprit in yourself, but that’s not it.”

“… … .”

Words that stab the lungs.

Only then was Garnet able to accept that Jim was a god.

You’ve been a pervert who’s only looked at legs and chests, but now you don’t do it like this.

She has come into contact with the foolishness she has pushed back into a corner of her heart and the fear she has hidden even deeper.

Gently and naturally.

“That was… … an accident born of the greed of foolish people, and you were the sole victim. You were just resurrected in a new body by chance. Yes, by chance.”

Now, Garnet’s existence has been confirmed.

She had been worrying all along.

A self that has become non-human.

Is she, who was reborn as a holy relic of the Hwaryeong sect, truly a good person?

What on earth is the meaning of Hwaryeong granting him a second life?

Were the regrets she had in her life really just her own resentment?

Such questions never ceased.

How can you be sure that your past self and your present self are the same being?

Everything you remember may have been fabricated.

There was such fear.

A fear that was not expressed or shown to anyone.

“you…….”

That’s why I joined the Demon King’s Army.

He tried to fulfill his foolish desires from the perspective of the Demon King’s army, as if he were trying to rebel.

Because it could be that the god Hwaryeong was using her as a puppet to save humanity.

But that fear has now been shattered.

Because the being that had met none other than Hwaryeong herself was right before my eyes.

He could be lying, but she felt sincerity in Jim’s eyes, which resembled the blue sky.

“No… … . Wait… … .”

Garnet covered her face with both hands, trying to hide the tears that suddenly poured out.

However, I couldn’t hide the tears that fell one by one between my fingers.

“Ah! Hey, the warrior is coming. I guess I’ll be going now for today.”

Hurrruk!

Garnet ran away. It seemed like she didn’t want to show this delicate side of herself, given her usual image.

Jim had a warm smile on his face at that sight, but… … ..

About 10 minutes passed.

“Did you both stay quiet?”

Esmeralda really appeared.

“I thought it was almost a fall, but it was real.”

“That crazy b*tch? How could that be?”

Jim scratched his cheek in confusion, and Extra, who had a somewhat negative prejudice against Garnet, put a wedge in there.

Esmeralda was momentarily puzzled by the conversation between just the two of them.

“I’m going to start interrogating you now, so if you don’t want to have your tongue pulled out, don’t lie, okay?”

“Of course, my lord. I will answer you with all my heart. Oh, and while you’re at it, why don’t you ask the lieutenant colonel about Abaddon? That’s what we were talking about.”

“No, this crazy kid right now… …!”

The interrogation began.