Chapter 297 [The Cause of Lost Composure (1)]
T/N: I sincerely apologize for the delay.
I’m back to finally finish the remaining sponsored chapters until Chapter 315. College really has taken most of my time, and I’m glad I have this break to wrap up my remaining work. I can finally retire after that.
Also, I’ll be adding my Ko-fi again soon. This is not to accept donations for bonus chapters, but to provide access to Genius Wizard Conceals His Origins, which had to be taken down after Fenrir got hit with a DMCA. With this in mind, I’m not yet sure what to do with Lout Prince after finishing the sponsored chapters now that Fenrir won’t be doing Novelpia/Korean novels. I’m open to suggestions.
Lastly, this novel as a whole is now rated R-19 on Novelpia. Please be advised, the rating has also been added.
“……Ah.”
After consummating with Ethan, a single exclamation involuntarily escaped my lips as I opened my eyes in his room.
My first impression was that the area below my waist felt somewhat sore. Not only the area between my thighs where… that thing had entered, but also the inside of my thighs felt tight, and my knees were painful.
Now that I was conscious of it, my chest also seemed to ache strangely.
…Come to think of it, I don’t think he even touched my chest today.
Well, besides those, what I was most confused by was my embarrassment.
Even though it was our first time, I seemed to have babbled so many things that I would never have said if I were in my right mind.
“……”
My face burned hot.
These words were so cringeworthy that I wondered if I had really said them earlier.
This is why people should always be careful with their words.
I could have just mechanically moved my hips, but why did I have to get carried away by the mood?
“…Well, on the bright side…”
At least I had successfully achieved my primary goal, so that was a relief.
Looking back, hardly anything went according to plan, but the result was good. Come to think of it, almost all of the plans I’ve made in this world were like this.
Now that I was finally free from the constraint of chastity, I felt oddly bittersweet. I had finally shed the qualification of a Saint—the power that had allowed me to use magic and the constraint that had forced me to maintain my chastity until now.
Well, I wouldn’t set my heart on any man other than Ethan for the rest of my life, so by my own standards, I was still an ‘honorary virgin,’ but objectively speaking, I had irreversibly lost my qualification as a Saint.
With this, finally, only Seriste would remain as the sole Saint in this world, as it should be.
‘Since Gyeongmwajogyegigwat said he wouldn’t touch any of the girls and would return to Earth, Seriste will probably remain a Saint even after the story ends.’
Though it might be unfortunate for Seriste, because of this, she was destined to live the rest of her life as a Saint.
Well, she probably wouldn’t look at any man other than Gyeongmwajogyegigwat anyway, so it wasn’t really my fault.
She’d be the same as me, as I had never even considered a future where I would lose my virginity to any man other than Ethan.
Actually, in my case, it wasn’t that only Ethan caught my eye; it just happened to turn out this way.
It was simply that the unicorn in me wouldn’t allow any man other than Ethan to take it, so I had no choice but to choose him.
Having my breasts touched, being seen naked, and doing all sorts of embarrassing things, then having my first time with another man would be something only a complete whore would do.
If I were going to do it, I would complete everything from first to home base with one person alone.
That was my last pride as a unicorn.
‘Ah, I should use Clean first.’
First, I needed to clean up this mess. The bed sheets and blankets had turned bright red, as if they were part of a murder scene, and they needed to be washed.
I didn’t realize I had bled this much until it was over. No wonder it hurt like hell.
Next time, I’ll make sure to be properly prepared before insertion. If I remember correctly, he was quite good at cunnilingus last time, so if I asked him to prepare me that way next time…
‘No, no, no, no.’
My mind really is messed up. Why the hell am I suddenly thinking about the next time?
The reason I mixed bodies with Ethan today was solely to lose my virginity to prevent being mistaken as a Saint, not particularly to do all sorts of intimate things with Ethan in the future.
Of course, if Ethan wins another match against Harold in a duel, I would do it ‘as promised,’ but even after having my first time, I had no intention of mixing bodies indiscriminately without restraint.
I think I started feeling good around the middle, but anyway, that’s a completely different issue.
After using Clean to clean the blanket, bed sheets, and ‘that area’ with Ethan’s traces for both cleaning and contraception, I tidied up the bedding.
‘Come to think of it, where did Ethan go?’
I wonder why he suddenly disappeared without waking me up. Looking at the Time Stone, it seemed only about three hours had passed.
Thinking he might have gone to the Main Bath by himself, I was putting on the clothes that had fallen to the floor when I heard a familiar voice from outside the window.
“Haah! Haah! Haah!!”
“……”
Looking down from the window toward the Training Grounds, Ethan was repeatedly swinging forward with just one wooden sword in hand.
The reason Ethan, who usually used dual swords, was training with just one sword was obvious. He wasn’t training; it was more like an activity to clear his mind.
Seeing Ethan acting so stupidly actually reassured me. At least I wasn’t the only one with a complicated mind because of what had just happened.
After putting back on the clothes I had worn when I entered Ethan’s room, I hurriedly made my way toward the Training Grounds.
Not only did I have many things to talk about with Ethan, but I also felt that it would be better to be with him even for a little while right now.
Swoosh! Swoosh! Swoosh!
“Haah! Haah! Haah!!”
Ethan Richard Blackwood.
No longer a virgin.
About two hours ago, having taken a significant leap as a man, he was organizing his thoughts by swinging his sword diligently to dispel all kinds of distractions in his mind.
Swoosh!!
“Haaaah!!!”
He wanted to stay by Lilith’s side a bit longer, pressing skin against skin, but the lewd demons that had invaded his mind wouldn’t allow it.
Despite having released his desire into her body twice, his lust for her hadn’t subsided at all.
The sleep deprivation that had accumulated from staying up all night had somehow vanished, and he felt like his mind was filled only with sexual desire.
When he came to his senses, he had already spent 30 minutes thoroughly fondling the breasts of Lilith, who was sleeping quietly and weakly, without her knowledge.
Ethan had quickly put on his clothes and left, fearing that if he stayed in that room any longer, it would be like raping her in her sleep.
He then tried to stabilize his mind through the swinging practice he used to do when he was very young.
When holding two swords, he had too much to think about, which easily allowed distracting thoughts to enter his mind, but when swinging just one sword in a single posture, no other complicated thoughts came to him.
‘I should go back after exactly two hours.’
By then, enough fatigue would have accumulated that he’d pass out as soon as he lay on the bed…
…Enough for his desire for sleep to surpass his sexual desires.
He had already informed the mansion’s servants. He had told Dittmeyer to ensure that no servant would visit his room today, no matter what happened, and just in case, he had also told Melissa, the head maid, not to look for Lilith today.
…Both of them had looked at him with somewhat strange gazes, but they didn’t ask why. Actually, they probably already knew.
‘No, no, I can’t think about that anymore.’
Ethan calmed his momentarily distracted mind and focused on swinging again.
He somehow needed to tire himself out quickly and return to his room. He didn’t want to see Lilith’s confused face when she woke up and found him missing.
They say that women usually like men to stay by their side for a long time after their first time.
It’s a biological instinct to confirm that the man they’re with is someone they can rely on and someone who can protect them.
From that perspective, his action of leaving Lilith alone in the room wasn’t very reliable as a man.
…Of course, it was an unavoidable choice because if he had stayed, he might not have been able to suppress his desires and would have ended up fondling Lilith’s breasts or troubling her as she slept beside him.
‘…Need to distract myself more.’
Swoosh! Swoooosh!!
“HAAAAH!! HAAAAAAAAH!!”
He swung the wooden sword in his hand while deliberately shouting louder. This was the most effective way to calm his foolish head, which kept turning toward Lilith even with the slightest deviation.
Of course, a life spent thinking only of her wouldn’t be so bad, but there were many problems to solve before that could happen.
There was much to prepare if he wanted to marry a provisional baroness of obscure origin from a branch family.
To achieve his dream, he first had to wake up from it.
After swinging his sword about 10,000 times in a single posture to somehow drive away the impure thoughts in his mind, the wooden sword finally slipped from Ethan’s weakened grip and fell to the floor with a thud.
Thud.
‘…I wonder if this is enough swinging.’
His body should be tired enough now that his sexual desire wouldn’t arise even if he went back.
In truth, it was uncertain whether he could resist seeing Lilith half-naked, covered only by a blanket, but that was something he had to endure with sheer willpower.
How about entering the bedroom with his eyes closed from the start? Since he could picture the furniture’s location in his mind even with his eyes closed, he thought he could return to bed without having to face Lilith.
With this in mind, Ethan turned around, but his plan was impeded from the very first step.
“……”
“……”
Smile.
“……”
Grip.
As soon as he turned around and saw the phantom of Lilith appearing before his eyes, Ethan turned back and gripped the wooden sword that had fallen to the ground.
‘I swung so much, but to think my mind still isn’t clear…’
It was such a vivid illusion that he wondered if it had actually gotten worse. It was as if she were really smiling in front of him.
He had to start over from the beginning.
Ethan quickly moved his arms to shake off the illusion deceiving his senses as he began his 10,000 swings over two hours again.
The momentary glimpse of Lilith’s smile was also a phantom created by his desire.
The light footsteps that seemed like she was approaching were also phantoms created by his cravings.
The presence felt from behind, the familiar scent, all phantoms.
Squish.
“……”
Even this sensation of something soft touching his back was… probably an illusion.
“…You handled me so roughly just a while ago, but now, you’re pretending not to see me after just a few hours?”
However, her sweet voice whispering in his ear was something he couldn’t possibly imagine as an illusion.
“…L-Lilith?”
“You finally looked this way.”
…His composure was shattered.
T/N
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