Mushoku tensei: The renegade heir

I had a dream, in that dream I was in my old body, the air around me relaxed me and made me feel invincible.

I was in the old room of one of my high school classmates, here I was thirteen years old, and it was my first time smoking marijuana, at first I choked and suffocated because of the smoke that invaded my lungs, but after a while I felt good, I had felt better, I had never felt like that in my life, but after a couple of hours the effect disappeared but I wanted more.

Then I started smoking again, the effect came back and lasted for several hours but in the end it ended and left me more miserable than before, I didn't want to feel like that, so I kept smoking, smoking and smoking, each time the effect of marijuana was less effective, so each time I smoked more, more and more, until I was no longer satisfied.

From one moment to the next I felt like my life was always miserable, that my life was shit and that drugs...no, this feeling was my salvation.

So I started to experiment, cocaine, crack, zanax, Ketamine...I didn't try fentanyl because it was too expensive for me...

And so, the last four years of my life slipped through my fingers in the blink of an eye, and when I realized I was 17, my brother...my brother saved me and when I wanted to get ahead...I died, the mistakes of my past haunted me and blocked my path.

Did you know that I hadn't seen my original parents since I was fifteen?...

(sigh)

Even in my other life I can't help but think about all the damage I did to my first family, and it made me depressed to imagine my parents' faces when they found out that I died.

Would they be angry because I brought my problems to my brothers and put them in danger? Would they be disappointed to see that their son failed in life and died like a dog? Or would they be sad because their son, their son died without even having the opportunity to live and with a fleeting life full of mistakes behind him? ...

I would never know, now I had reincarnated in this new world that more than a new opportunity seemed like a prison, the noble situation is shit, if it weren't for my new mother and my little brother Philemon I would have already left, and more after seeing the true intentions of my father... of Amarant, but now I couldn't even confront him, he was dead, he was murdered and I killed his murderer, now I will never see him again, I will never be able to reconcile with him and spend time with him.

"Haa... what a dilemma, right? But wait a minute, why am I thinking about this now?..." I muttered while looking at my surroundings.

hmmm?...I looked around, it was a completely white room, there was nothing around me which made me nervous.

"What the fuck?..." I muttered confused

What am I doing here? First I was in the mansion...Aubert and Dante broke into the mansion, I killed them both, then the sky was weird...the red orb!!!...

That thing exploded and devoured everything in its path, I don't know how big the explosion was, but it was close to the Asura academy which was on the other side of the noble district...shit, it doesn't matter, in any case my family was also swallowed by that explosion like me, then I felt like I was falling...

and I did fall, into a forest and I fainted...

"Am I dead?..." I muttered in terror and then sighed.

Oh well, that was disappointing and much more premature than before...

"Oh no, calm down you're not dead!" I heard a voice say behind me.

"Hmm?!!" I turned quickly and there it was, a human figure without a face and completely dressed in white...

For some reason, I couldn't see it properly, it was as if it was blurry, as if my vision couldn't focus properly, which made me shudder.

"Who the fuck are you?..." I muttered in fear.

"Moooo!! And that coldness?!" He answered in a playful tone and I just frowned.

"You say I'm not dead right? Where am I? Who are you?!" I said, my patience was already running out along with the anxiety of knowing what happened to my family.

"Wow, okay, okay, ahem!! Paul... nice to meet you, my name is Hitogami and I'm the human god" he said.

"...Ha, and what do you want from me? You were the one who caused that explosion in Ars?!... Answer!!!" I yelled at him.

"Hehe, relax my friend, I'm just as confused as you, ever since you reincarnated in this world I've been watching you, and I must say that you've provided me with a lot of fun" Hitogami continued speaking in a playful tone which only exhausted my patience even more.

"Since my reincarnation?... then you reincarnated me?" I muttered.

"No, you're wrong, you can give that section to the evil Dragon God, in fact, you are an anomaly and it was fun to see how you lived your life in all these years, but now seeing the situation you've gotten yourself into I've decided to help you!!" he declared with emotion.

...the way he spoke reminded me of those noble rebels who only say what you want to hear, my instincts told me that I shouldn't trust him, there was no doubt about that.

"So, you don't know what caused that explosion?...if you're a god I suppose you should at least know that right?" I muttered.

"Ugh my friend, you make things very difficult for me!! Let's see...first of all your existence...no, your soul is an anomaly that came out of nowhere, the original Paul Notos Greyrat was very different from what you are now" he declared.

"The original Paul Notos Greyrat?...then I stole this body?..." I muttered.

"Yes, however the original soul was what you could call a bastard womanizer, he cheated on his wife you know?, and fathered a child that condemned this world!" Hitogami said with disdain.

Well...if you put it that way, I guess I'm a better replacement no?...

"Yes, that's right, you have an even brighter future than the original Paul Notos Greyrat!, but from what I see, you're in a big mess now, aren't you?" He muttered in a playful tone.

I clicked my tongue loudly at this.

"Yes, I know, and I'd like to know what you know about that incident!"

"Asshh!! I told you that what's happening is an anomaly!! Your very existence changed the course of this world, my vision becomes hazy, every future that is created falls apart when you set foot in that place, so now I'm in a blind spot!!"

"...shit, then what can I do?"

Hitogami smiled at this, as if that was the answer he had always wanted to hear, but because he was only a mouth on a flat body it gave me a tremendous feeling of unease.

"I could help you, but that means you have to trust me!" he muttered.

"Do you think I'm an idiot? If you really wanted to help me, why didn't you do it when I was reborn, if you say that you have watched me since those moments?" I questioned.

Hitogami grimaced and moved exaggeratedly around the place.

"Mooo!!, you're really bad you know?!!, besides, no matter how good your skills are, you won't be able to survive alone in the great forest without help!" Hitogami said.

"The great forest?!" I screamed in shock.

What the fuck?, that place wasn't on the Millis continent which was literally on the other side of the world?!, how the hell did I get here?!!!.

"Yessss!!, that's the big dilemma!!, you were caught in a big mana disaster and you were randomly teleported!" he screamed.

"Wait... mana disaster?!!, that means my family is also in danger?!!!" I said as I felt anxiety invading my body.

"Calm down, calm down!!, your family is fine friend!" he said with a scary smile "But if you want to get to them you have to let me help you, the way back home is very complicated after all!" he replied.

"Fuuuu..." I sighed deeply as I tried to relax.

"My mother and brother are okay?..." I muttered.

"Yeah, buddy, they're safe!!" He said.

"Where are they?!" I demanded.

"Hey! You're asking too much!! Do you trust me or not?!" He said with a fake annoyed tone.

"Trust you?!! How do you expect me to do that when you refuse to tell me where my family is?!" I shouted with all my strength.

"And what could you do?! Well, your family is still in the central continent!! And if you want to see them so much you have to accept my help!!" He said in an angry tone.

Damn...what do I do now? The bastard is right, even if I know their location I couldn't do practically anything...I'm too far away.

"See? Now I ask you again...Do you trust me?" He muttered with a smile.

I looked at him directly, I had no eyes so I couldn't see if he was lying, but...what other option did I have?...

(sigh)

"Okay, I trust you, what should I do?..." I muttered.

Hitogami's smile grew even bigger which made me immediately doubt the decision I had made.

"Very well Paul! Listen to me very carefully! This will be a special advice that I will give you as the beginning of our friendship!!" He said in an enthusiastic tone and I could only shrug my shoulders.

"You will wake up in the middle of the great forest, heal your wounds and lean on the nearest tree until someone comes to look for you!" He said.

"...what?! That's all! What kind of shitty advice is that?!" I shouted indignantly.

"Don't be afraid! You will see that with my help everything will turn out better than before! For now, see you until you are in better condition!!" He screamed and then began to fade from my sight with an echo.

"Wait! Who should I wait for! Where will they take me!" I screamed with hatred but Hitogami had already disappeared from my sight and I could only curse to myself.

And immediately I felt an unknown force that pushed me forward making me fall and the next moment I fainted only to wake up in the middle of a forest.

"Haa?..." I muttered as I tried to look around, there was only a darkened forest around me and a feeling of discomfort began to invade me, I felt terribly weak and tried to look at my condition.

!!!!!

I was on top of hundreds of tree branches, I looked up at the sky and I could see the trace of my fall in the trees.

"Shit!" I screamed and an intense pain began to invade me.

I already had an intense feeling of discomfort, now a tremendous pain began to invade my entire body.

I instinctively looked below me and almost fainted again, my legs were bent... they were not crushed beneath me, I had fallen face up in a terrible position, apparently I had broken my spine, my right arm was crushed in the middle of a tree trunk, I could not see anymore but I could feel that my entire body was in pieces, but fortunately my left arm was functional but...

"aaaaaaaaaagh!!!" I let out a guttural cry when the waves of pain invaded me, I was about to faint again from the pain but ironically the pain kept me awake.

"haaa!!!...haaaa!!...haaaa!!" Tears started to come out of my eyes, I had run out of air from screaming so much, but the pain was so intense that I couldn't even think clearly.

Shit!!!!

I tried to gather my thoughts but the pain clouded my mind.

"I have to heal myself!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and tried to move, but my arms and legs were completely destroyed, and I could barely move my left arm.

"Haaaa!!..." With another guttural scream I began to accumulate mana in my arm.

"It's going to hurt more..." I muttered with tears, I put my hand on the ground and created a sonic boom that launched me into the sky, I felt as if my arm was breaking more from the violent pull, but I couldn't even scream because immediately after I fell face down on the ground, knocking the air out of my lungs, I quickly felt a sensation of drowning.

Shit!!, one of my ribs must have broken and pierced my lungs.

I quickly started pumping mana into my hand and began to heal my organs and immediately vomited blood in torrents.

"I have to... ughhh!" I moaned in pain and used earth magic to spin around creating a platform.

First it was the rest of my organs, then I focused on my spine, which allowed me to move again and with earth magic I was able to sit up.

Then I looked at my right arm which felt like jelly, I couldn't move it even a little and the pain ran through every fiber of my body.

I carefully began to use healing magic imagining how my bones returned to their place and my muscles returned to their place.

"haaaa..." I sighed weakly as my arm felt like new, now it was the turn of my legs which were in worse condition, my left foot was bent in three parts.

"yeaaaaaagh!!!" I screamed in pain as I tried to straighten my left foot as much as possible and healed it as much as I could.

Now...it was my right foot's turn.

It was more intact in a way...but a huge part below the knee was torn because part of my bone had come out of the skin.

Shit, if I heal like this, my bone will stay like this and I will be lame forever!!!

"Fu...fu, fu fu!!! Taking a piece of branch on the ground and putting it in my mouth, I touched my bone and squeezed it back into my leg. The pain was horrible. I felt like I couldn't breathe and my strength left me and I almost fainted again.

"Shit!!!" I screamed while my right hand held my bone so it wouldn't come out of my leg and with my left hand I began to heal myself.

It was one of the most horrible experiences of my life, but when the wound closed, I fell to the ground, out of breath.

That was without a doubt the most horrible thing I've ever done in my life....

I tried to get up and fortunately I was able to walk well, so I lay down on a tree and let out a sigh of pain.

I was covered in blood and sweat that made me feel terribly uncomfortable, but that didn't matter to me because I lost consciousness the next moment.