Chapter 10: Cracks in the Walls
Aria hadn't meant to cry.
Not in front of him. Not after everything. But as soon as she and Eli returned to the hotel room, and he had curled up in bed with his stuffed bear, clutching it the way he did whenever his mind was full, the tears came.
She sat at the edge of the bed, one hand over her mouth, as silent sobs shook her shoulders.
He had seen him.
Pushed him on a swing.
Laughed with him.
And Elias hadn't flinched.
He hadn't asked for explanations or shouted about betrayal. He hadn't demanded answers she wasn't ready to give.
He had just... shown up.
Quietly. Unexpectedly. Fully.
And that terrified her more than any threat ever could.
Because it meant the man she had once walked away from hadn't stopped being dangerous—not in the cruel, controlling way she had feared—but in the gentle, steady way he had always broken down her walls.
Not by force.
But by simply existing.
By seeing her.
By being the version of himself that no boardroom ever saw.
And now, he had seen Eli.
Aria wiped her face and walked into the bathroom. She stared at her reflection—mascara smudged, eyes red, heart cracked open like a window she had long boarded shut.
"You promised yourself," she whispered. "You said he would never come near again."
But promises made in pain rarely survived the healing that came later.
And this time, she wasn't alone in the decision.
Eli was a part of it.
A huge, beating part.
She washed her face slowly, trying to wipe away more than just the mascara. Trying to breathe again. But her thoughts were tangled—wrapped around the sound of Elias laughing beside Eli, the way their hands had touched for that second too long as she buckled the boy's seatbelt, and the haunting realization that maybe—just maybe—some bonds weren't meant to break.
The next morning, Elias sent a message.
If he's free, I'd like to take Eli to the aquarium. Just for an hour. You can come too. Or not.
Aria stared at the screen for a long time.
She read it twice. Then a third time.
There was no assumption. No control. No veiled threat. Just... a father asking for time with his son.
She typed and deleted a dozen different responses before finally settling on:
We'll meet you there at ten. Don't be late.
His reply came quickly.
Never with him.
Her heart clenched.
"Mommy, can I wear my blue shirt today? The one with the whales on it?" Eli's voice piped up from behind her.
"Sure, sweetheart." She smiled, though her fingers trembled slightly. "You'll match the fish."
"And can I bring Mr. Bubbles?" he asked, holding up his well-worn stuffed bear.
"Of course. I think he'd love the aquarium too."
By the time they arrived, Eli was a flurry of excitement. "Are there sharks? Will they bite? I want to see a jellyfish, Mommy. But not a stingy one. Just the pretty ones that float like balloons!"
He skipped ahead toward the entrance, his little sneakers squeaking with every step.
Elias was already there, standing by the ticket booth, holding two passes and a small plush penguin in his hand.
Eli ran up to him before Aria could stop him.
"You came!"
Elias crouched. "Of course I did."
"Is this for me?" Eli grabbed the penguin.
"If you like it."
"I love it! Mommy, look!" He held it up, beaming.
Aria nodded, trying to ignore the way her heart twisted at the sight of them together.
They looked natural.
Effortless.
Like time hadn't stolen four years from them.
Like some part of Eli knew.
As they entered the aquarium, Elias leaned in just enough to whisper, "Thanks for coming."
"I said ten. You're lucky we didn't leave you here," she said flatly, though her lips curled just slightly at the edges.
"I would've tracked you two down at the dolphin tank," he smirked.
She rolled her eyes but said nothing.
Inside, Eli was a whirlwind of awe. He tugged Elias toward every tank, pointing and exclaiming.
"Look! That one has a funny face!"
"That one looks like spaghetti!"
Elias crouched beside him. "That's a lionfish. See the stripes? They're not just for show."
"Do they roar like lions?" Eli asked, wide-eyed.
"No," Elias chuckled, "but they do like attention. Just like you."
Eli giggled. "I'm not a fish, Daddy."
Aria's heart stopped for a beat.
Neither of them said anything.
But Elias's eyes lifted slowly to meet hers.
She didn't correct the word.
She couldn't.
And Elias didn't comment on it either.
Instead, he turned back to Eli. "No, you're not. But I think if you were, you'd be the fastest little clownfish in the sea."
"Clownfish! Like Nemo!"
"Exactly."
They continued through the exhibits, Eli dragging them both from tank to tank.
"Mommy, look! That stingray looks like it's smiling!"
"It does," Aria said, crouching beside him. "Maybe it's happy to see you."
"Do fish smile?" Eli asked, turning to Elias.
Elias bent down. "Not the way we do. But maybe... when you're really good at swimming, you don't need to smile to show you're happy. You just swim fast and free."
"That's what I want to do!" Eli declared. "Swim fast like a dolphin! Can I learn to swim, Mommy?"
"You can," she said gently. "Maybe this summer."
Elias looked at her, a hopeful flicker in his eyes. "I know a great instructor," he offered.
"We'll see," Aria replied, not making promises she wasn't sure she could keep.
At the jellyfish tank, Eli placed both hands on the glass, eyes wide.
"They look like they're dancing," he whispered.
"They kind of are," Elias replied. "They move with the water. Let it carry them."
"Like floating balloons," Eli murmured.
"Exactly," Aria said, watching them both.
Eli turned suddenly. "Can we come again? Tomorrow?"
"Maybe," Elias said.
"We'll see," Aria added, shooting Elias a quiet look.
Eli pouted, but then was quickly distracted by a school of tiny silver fish darting by.
Afterward, they sat on a bench just outside the exit.
Eli was devouring a chocolate ice cream cone, already sticky with melted sweetness.
Aria and Elias sat on either side of him—close, but not touching. Connected only by the small boy between them.
"Thank you," Elias said quietly.
She glanced at him.
"For today," he continued. "For letting me see him."
"I didn't do it for you," she replied, voice low.
"I know. You did it for him. But still… thank you."
Silence stretched between them.
Eli kicked his legs, humming softly as he nibbled at the cone.
"I didn't keep him from you to hurt you," she said suddenly, surprising even herself with the confession.
Elias didn't respond immediately.
"I figured that much," he said eventually. "You wouldn't have done this if you didn't believe it was the right thing."
"I was scared," she whispered. "You were so angry. So cold. That last year... it wasn't just hard—it was impossible."
"I know."
He said it without defense.
Just quiet understanding.
"I thought I was protecting him," she said, eyes fixed on Eli's swinging legs. "Maybe I was. But maybe I was protecting myself, too."
"I never stopped loving you," Elias said suddenly.
She looked at him, startled.
"I don't expect you to say it back. I'm not asking for anything," he continued. "But I need you to know... you didn't disappear from me. You were everywhere. In every decision I made, in every regret I lived through. And now... now I have to face what I missed."
Aria's voice was barely audible. "It's not that simple."
"I know."
"I'm not who I was."
"Neither am I."
She shook her head. "That doesn't fix things."
"No. But maybe it starts something else."
He leaned slightly, not enough to invade, just enough to be present.
"I want to be in his life," he said simply. "Not just visits or weekend calls. I want him to know me."
"That's not a small thing to ask."
"I know. But it's not a small thing to offer either."
That made her pause.
She looked at him—really looked at him.
And for the first time, she saw not the man who had hurt her, but the man who had changed.
Maybe.
Maybe not.
But change wasn't a moment. It was a process.
And maybe this—these small steps—were part of it.
She turned her gaze back to Eli, who was now holding the penguin up like it was flying.
"I'll think about it," she said softly.
That was the best she could offer.
And Elias—thankfully—understood.
"That's all I'm asking."