The Unbelievers

Chapter 46

Knock, knock. He lightly tapped on the door and waited for a response, but there was no reaction from inside. It could be that Eunseong was unable to get up due to overexerting himself with exercise he usually didn’t do, or perhaps he was unwell or in pain.

Knock, knock. He knocked again and patiently waited for Eunseong’s reply, but the inside remained quiet.

With no other choice, he opened the door. He slightly cracked it open to assess the situation inside. He saw Hyungyong curled up on the bed. The air conditioner in the room was running strongly, making the temperature quite low.

“Are you still not awake?”

“…….”

Eunseong didn’t respond to his question. As he stood outside, peering in, he stepped inside. Eunseong was wrapped up in the bedding, literally engulfed in the blanket. Yoo Siwoon found the air conditioner remote and adjusted the temperature to a more comfortable level. The strong sound of the wind lessened.

Eunseong was frowning as if he were having a nightmare, groaning softly. Yoo Siwoon, who had been tense wondering what was wrong, felt a sense of relief as he approached the sleeping figure.

“……Ugh, ugh.”

Eunseong intermittently trembled and groaned, suddenly moving his head as if trying to avoid something. It looked like he was trying to evade someone’s hand that was striking him.

Who would hit someone like this…?

Yoo Siwoon couldn’t understand his cousin, Seojungki. He was a pathetic human being. Eunseong, who had been suffering from the violence he wielded, was secretly saving money to leave home, a fact that Yoo Siwoon’s father had already noticed after observing them for a long time. If Eunseong really did leave home, it would be harder to protect him, so after his father passed away, Yoo Siwoon had decided to bring him in himself.

“……Eunseong.”

Yoo Siwoon gently tapped the pillow that Eunseong was resting on. If he was having a nightmare, he wanted to wake him up. He didn’t want him to experience such things even in his dreams.

Eunseong merely twisted his face, groaning. Yoo Siwoon, who had only been tapping the pillow, reluctantly grabbed Eunseong’s shoulder. He shook him firmly once to wake him up, and Eunseong opened his eyes hazily.

“You need to get up.”

“…….”

“Did you have a bad dream?”

“…….”

With his eyes still hazy, Eunseong looked up at him. His gaze was still wandering in a daze. Yoo Siwoon leaned down to loosen the bedding that was constricting Eunseong’s body. At that moment, Eunseong grabbed the back of his neck.

“…….”

His delicately opened eyes gazed up at him endlessly, and he lifted his head slightly while holding onto his neck. The sudden closeness of their faces startled Yoo Siwoon as Eunseong’s lips pressed against his.

Yoo Siwoon, frozen like a statue, opened his eyes wide. In contrast, Eunseong closed his eyes, which had been slightly open. He wrapped his arms around Yoo Siwoon’s neck and pressed their lips together tightly like a clam. The dry, rough texture of his lips brushed against Yoo Siwoon’s, and the awkward kiss, which had startled him, ended with a few gentle bites before releasing.

“……I told you to do it like this……, I said it earlier, earlier…….”

Eunseong mumbled something like a sigh, loosening his arms around Yoo Siwoon’s neck, turning over, and quietly slipping back into sleep.

Without anyone waking him, Eunseong suddenly jolted awake, sitting up.

“……What is it?”

The dream he had after tossing and turning until dawn was strangely vivid.

Dressed like a crow, Yoo Siwoon was running ahead, and Eunseong was chasing after him, watching his back. Occasionally, Yoo Siwoon would look back to check if Eunseong was keeping up. The distance between them never seemed to close.

Eunseong was extremely frustrated that his limbs wouldn’t move as he wished. Whenever he reached out to grab him, he couldn’t quite catch him due to the slightest difference in their fingers, and even when Yoo Siwoon looked back to check on him, he wouldn’t let himself be caught. Then, with all his might, Eunseong kicked his legs. Finally, he managed to grab him tightly.

He wrapped his arms around Yoo Siwoon’s thick neck, panting with joy that he had finally caught him. Unlike in reality, the Yoo Siwoon in his dream showed no signs of discomfort. Instead, he looked back at Eunseong and said he was running well, that he had a talent for running. Eunseong got angry at him. He didn’t like running, didn’t like sweating, and in fact, he hated exercise altogether.

Holding onto Yoo Siwoon’s neck, which was sticky with sweat, Eunseong looked at him with a puzzled expression and said that he didn’t know anything. Yoo Siwoon asked what he didn’t know. Eunseong replied that he was acting like a fool. Yoo Siwoon countered that he had graduated from a prestigious university, while Eunseong was just a bottom-tier student who attended a cram school.

Eunseong hit Yoo Siwoon’s shoulder, which was being annoying even in his dream. He threatened that if he kept acting like this, he would kiss Choi Joong-eon. Yoo Siwoon said that was unacceptable. When Eunseong insisted that he really didn’t know anything, Yoo Siwoon mentioned that he graduated from a university in America.

The absurdity of the dream aside, the sensation of suddenly kissing Yoo Siwoon, who emphasized that he graduated from an American university, was strangely vivid.

After kissing him, he seemed to have told the surprised man that what he wanted was this, not running.

Since becoming aware of him, Eunseong had often dreamed of Yoo Siwoon. When he woke up in the morning, he would burst into laughter at the ridiculousness of the dreams that revealed his level, and on some days, he would be in despair and self-loathing when he found himself wet. However, it was the first time that the sensation of a kiss, which had always been fleeting, was revived so vividly like today.

As if it had actually happened.

Yoo Siwoon’s lips felt firm yet soft. When he pressed his lips against the dry, seemingly soft ones, he could feel the solid and heavy tension of his jaw.

“……Ha, this is really getting out of hand.”

Eunseong felt drained and collapsed back onto the bed. He absentmindedly fiddled with his lips, recalling the unfamiliar sensation that wouldn’t easily fade. Then he began to feel strange. It felt as if something was tightening between his legs, and he felt a need down below. While he was only playing with his lips with his fingers, he gently pulled the pillow beside him into the blanket.

He placed the pillow between his legs, squeezing it tightly and wriggling his waist.

“Ha.”

What initially felt like a big deal, startling him to the point of tears, became trivial as he continued to experience it. As time passed, Eunseong became more adept at managing his arousal.

Feeling sexual desire for a relative wasn’t something to be welcomed, but it was a completely personal and concealed aspect of his life that no one knew about, and no one needed to know.

Everyone has at least one secret they keep, and on mornings when he had soaked himself to the point of needing to change his underwear, he would realize this with overwhelming self-loathing, but today wasn’t one of those days. He even felt a slight regret, wishing he could have dreamed a little longer, that he could have continued without waking up.

Eunseong recalled the vivid kiss he had with him. He rubbed himself while squeezing the pillow tightly between his thighs. Soon, his body temperature rose, and uneven breaths escaped him.

With his eyes closed, his face lost in self-pleasure, he felt as if he were wandering through a dream.

He wrapped his hand around Yoo Siwoon’s firm jaw and pressed their lips together. His hands, which had been caressing his jaw and cheeks, slid down to Yoo Siwoon’s thick neck, stroking it, and then caressing his wolf-like body. His large hand responded by caressing Eunseong’s back. Moisture began to build up, making their skin sticky.

“Ugh, ugh……, mm.”

As he tightened and rubbed below, Eunseong let out a soft moan. His aroused dick rubbed against the inside of his pajamas, and he felt the skin around his perineum swell with excitement. Strangely, stimulating that area felt just as pleasurable as touching his dick.

Eunseong was inexperienced with self-pleasure. It hadn’t been long since he became aware of his sexual desire, and it was his first time feeling arousal. He had lived thinking of himself as asexual, and aside from nocturnal emissions, he had almost no experience. Perhaps because of that, even the slightest stimulation brought a strong reaction. He didn’t even need to touch himself. Like he was holding back urine, he rubbed his legs together, squeezed the pillow tightly, and twisted his waist.

“Ugh……, ugh, ha, ugh…….”

Not knowing what to do, he bit his fingers and tore at his nails. As he rubbed quickly below, the sound of his movements echoed, and in his imagination, when Yoo Siwoon’s tongue wrapped around his own, he swallowed his moans and trembled. The sensation that burned white in his mind spread rapidly through his lower abdomen and throughout his body.

“Ha……, ha……, ah……, mm.”

After catching his breath for a while, he opened his eyes. His vision was hazy and blurred. Eunseong lay there with the pillow between his legs, waiting for the lingering warmth throughout his body to fade.

The damp sensation that remained uncomfortably made his lower body throb. A part of his body that had never functioned in his life was lewdly responding to Yoo Siwoon.

Lying there in a daze, Eunseong recalled the unpleasant gestures he had shown when he leaned against him yesterday and tightly shut his eyes.