Chapter 5: Chapter Five: Ethan’s Vulnerability
The warm glow of late afternoon sunlight filtered through the windows of the library, casting golden streaks across the table where Ava sat, her sketchbook open in front of her. She absentmindedly tapped her pencil against the page, lost in thought. Ethan was late.
Not that she was surprised. He'd warned her earlier that his soccer practice might run long, but part of her had hoped he'd find a way to show up on time. Their partnership had been surprisingly productive so far, but she couldn't shake the feeling that their worlds were so different. Her art and his soccer how could they possibly coexist?
The sound of hurried footsteps broke her reverie. She looked up to see Ethan rushing in, his hair damp with sweat and his soccer bag slung over his shoulder. He looked frazzled, which was unusual for someone who always seemed so effortlessly composed.
"Sorry, sorry," he said, sliding into the chair across from her. "Coach kept us late again. I barely had time to shower."
Ava wrinkled her nose. "You call that a shower?"
Ethan chuckled, running a hand through his hair. "Fair point. I'll try harder next time."
She smirked but didn't press the issue, instead flipping her sketchbook to the concept they'd been working on. "We still need to finalize the composition for the project. I was thinking we could use this layout one perspective on the left, the other on the right, with a shared focal point in the middle."
Ethan leaned in, studying her sketch. "I like it. The symmetry works. But what if the focal point isn't so obvious? Like, instead of a person or a tree, it's something smaller, like a bird or a piece of trash on the ground. Something people wouldn't normally notice."
Ava blinked, surprised. "That's… actually a really interesting idea."
"What can I say?" Ethan grinned. "I have my moments."
For the next hour, they worked in comfortable silence, their heads bent over the sketchbook. Ava was struck by how focused Ethan could be when he set his mind to something. He wasn't the carefree jock she'd assumed he was there was a depth to him that intrigued her.
As they wrapped up, Ethan leaned back in his chair and stretched, letting out a satisfied sigh. "I think we're actually making progress. Who knew?"
Ava smiled faintly, closing her sketchbook. "You're not as bad at this as I thought you'd be."
"High praise," Ethan said, his eyes twinkling with amusement. "Coming from you, that's practically a standing ovation."
Before she could respond, his phone buzzed on the table. He glanced at the screen, and the easygoing smile on his face faltered. Ava watched as his shoulders tensed and his jaw tightened.
"Everything okay?" she asked hesitantly.
"Yeah. It's just… nothing." Ethan shoved the phone into his pocket and stood, slinging his bag over his shoulder. "I should get going. See you tomorrow?"
"Sure," Ava said, though she couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong.
The next day, Ava found herself thinking about Ethan more than she wanted to admit. His reaction to the text had been brief but telling, and it gnawed at her curiosity. She told herself it wasn't her business, but the memory of his tense expression lingered.
After school, she decided to stop by the soccer field, hoping to catch him after practice. The players were scattered across the field, running drills and shouting encouragement. Ethan stood near the goal, his usual confidence dimmed as he barked instructions to his teammates. Even from a distance, Ava could tell something was off.
When practice ended, Ethan lingered on the field, watching as his teammates headed for the locker room. Ava hesitated, unsure if she should approach him. But before she could make up her mind, he turned and spotted her.
"Ava?" he called, jogging over. His expression was a mix of surprise and curiosity. "What are you doing here?"
"I—" She faltered, suddenly feeling self-conscious. "I just wanted to make sure you were okay. You seemed… off yesterday."
Ethan's smile was faint, but it didn't reach his eyes. "You noticed that, huh?"
She nodded, her arms crossed over her chest. "Is everything all right?"
For a moment, Ethan looked like he might brush her off. But then he sighed, running a hand through his hair. "It's just… a lot. Between soccer, school, and, well, other stuff, it feels like I'm always trying to keep my head above water."
Ava tilted her head, studying him. "You don't have to act like you've got it all together, you know."
Ethan let out a bitter laugh. "Easy for you to say. You're not the guy everyone expects to have all the answers."
"Maybe not," Ava said, her voice soft. "But I know what it's like to feel like you're not enough."
Her words hung in the air, and for the first time, Ethan looked at her like he truly saw her. The vulnerability in his eyes mirrored her own, and it made her chest ache.
"Thanks, Ava," he said quietly. "I mean it."
She offered a small smile. "Anytime."
The next week brought a surprising shift in their partnership. Ethan seemed more open, and their conversations grew deeper. Ava learned that he loved old movies and had a secret talent for playing the guitar. In return, she shared bits of herself she rarely revealed her love of stargazing, her dream of attending art school, and the insecurities that often held her back.
One afternoon, as they worked in the art room after school, Ethan set down his pencil and looked at her thoughtfully. "You know, I envy you."
Ava blinked, startled. "What? Why?"
"Because you're passionate about something. You have this incredible talent, and you're not afraid to chase it. I wish I had that."
She frowned. "Ethan, you're amazing at soccer. Everyone admires you."
"Yeah, but is that all there is?" He leaned back in his chair, his gaze distant. "Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a collection of expectations. Like, what happens when I stop being the soccer guy? Who am I then?"
Ava didn't know how to respond. She'd always assumed Ethan's life was perfect, but hearing him voice his doubts made her realize how much she'd misjudged him.
"You're more than that," she said finally. "You're smart, creative, and surprisingly insightful. You just need to give yourself more credit."
Ethan smiled, a genuine warmth in his expression. "Thanks, Ava. That means a lot."
For the first time, she felt like they were truly partners not just in their project, but in the unspoken understanding they'd built between them. And as they packed up for the day, Ava couldn't help but think that maybe, just maybe, there was more to Ethan Blake than she'd ever imagined.